Strength in resting.
This whole no-running thing was killing me.
It has been a few weeks since my chiropractor told me not to run. And I was supposed to wait a few more weeks before I tried to get back out there. When she initially told me told me the news, not only was my hip and knee hurting, it then hurt my heart to hear I needed to take a break. But, I really felt God say through it all, "Simply rest, My child. Just rest right now."
So I've been resting. And resting. And resting.
To add to the torture of the stillness, the other night I had the most beautiful dream about running, where I remember simply gliding along in my run so peacefully. No aches and pains. No gasping for breath in my stamina like usual. Just running, not away from anything, but toward unexpected unknowns so enthusiastically. Then I woke up and remembered, oh yeah, back to reality and this hip problem I have.
I've been trying to keep up with yoga in the meantime, but I've truly been missing running. Not only do I miss the peace of mind it gives me daily to clear my mind during runs, but now that my jeans have started getting tighter, I had enough resting. So I couldn't resist, I got back out there out tonight.
Further motivating me, my friend Rachel and I and our moms attended the most amazing conference in town by one of my favorite Christian book authors, Beth Moore. It was a beautiful two-days of truly feeling God's presence in my spirit and the 14,500 other women in His house. Of all things, the foundation of her message was Phillippians 3 about running toward Jesus, forgetting the past, and pressing toward the future. To further illustrate her points, she showed a YouTube clip this morning that I COMPLETELY bawled my eyes out to.
To preface, it is Derek Redmond, an Olympic athlete who got an injury in the middle of his race. The man you see jump out from the crowd to help him finish the race is his father. The quality is a little poor, but you must watch this!
I couldn't think of a more beautiful analogy of God's love for us. When we are broken, like I feel currently with my injury, our Heavenly Father is always ready to jump up and walk with us to be our strength when we are weak. And as Beth Moore added: "And He's always there to smack away other people who try to get in the way like the father did in the video!" She's the best, I love her!
How could I not go for a run after viewing that? I usually run in the morning, but when I got home, it was the most beautiful Floridian weather, not too hot, not too cold, and a golden setting sun. I told myself, I was just going to walk, but after a mile I tried to run to test my hip and knee, and next thing I knew, I ran the rest of the way home, 5 miles all in all. And I NEVER have been able to do that! Usually I walk 50%, run 50%, but the first time ever, I ran probably 95% of the time tonight. I got teary eyed all over again just realizing the strength that comes from the moments of resting when we truly allow ourselves to.
I'm sure I'll be paying for it tomorrow, but for today, it was amazing to feel that same feeling in reality that I thought was only possible in my dreams.
May your Sunday be a true day of rest the way Lord the designed it to be. I'm really looking forward to mine. Special plans involving a new dress, meandering on cobblestone streets, and the company of a beautiful heart. :-)