In love again.
At their rehearsal dinner, Jared stood up in front of his closest friends and family, not only talking about his love for Rosanna, but also boldly sharing about when he first "fell in love with the Lord"... and those words right there really stood out to me.
Wow.
Fell IN love with the Lord.
Sure, I love the Lord and gave my life to Him many years ago, but was I still IN love with the Lord?
And as hard as it is to admit, I hadn't been. I was simply going through the motions trying to simply survive the heartbreak of losing the first man I ever loved. Choosing things I wanted over what He wanted and knew was His best for me. Not making time for Him in prayer at the beginning of each day like I used to, and instead letting busyness take priority. Getting caught up in ways of the world. Trying to numb my pain with things just weren't fulfilling and instead caused more pain. All those little ways Satan creeps in to take our eyes off the Lord and to doubt Him and His goodness.
I realized I was treating my relationship with the Lord like I was my relationship with the gym. One night I was complaining to Mark about how I just didn't have time to work out and how guilty I felt for taking the time to work out when I had so much work on my plate to do for my clients. And he responded back, "Actually, you should look at it like you should feel guilty for NOT taking time to take care of yourself. If you don't take care of yourself first and build up your strength, everything else will fall apart around you." And how true I've been seeing it is the same with our spiritual "workout." God designed us to NEED to start our days with Him, to find our strength in Him, to reconnect with Him just like any other love relationship. Because when we don't, everything else will fall apart around us.
In diving back into my Bible study, I really loved this passage and analogy Jesus talked about in John 15:
"I am the vine, and you are the branches. If any remain in me and I remain in them, they produce much fruit. But without me, they can do nothing. If any do not remain in me, they are like the branch that is thrown away and then dies. People pick up dead branches, throw them into the fire and burn them. If you remain in me and follow my teachings, you can ask anything you want, and it will be given to you. You should produce much fruit and show that you are my followers, which brings glory to the Father. I loved you as the Father loved me. Now remain in my love. I have obeyed my Father's commands, and I remain in His love. In the same way, if you obey My commands, you will remain in My love. I have told you these things so that you can have the same joy I have and so that your joy will be the fullest possible joy."
I really love the words in this video, "I Need You to Love Me" by the Christian group Barlow Girl. Relistening to the song again, it just makes me teary eyed, but in a beautiful way. May your day be filled with Jesus' sweet love too!
Video from tangle.com
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6 Comments:
Thank you for this, Scarlett.
I've been feeling the same way about my relationship with God, and really needed to read your post and watch that video.
God bless you, sweet girl <3
I LOVE the song by Barlow Girl..LOVE. IT's been a favorite for a long while! And I *just* posted that verse on my Facebook status page the other day! ;)
God is good..He never fails us- never leaves us--He's right there waiting for us when we return to Him...AWESOME. Beyond amazing. Beyond comprehension for us undeserving peons! ;)
Thanks for reminding me of John 15. I am the vine, you are the branches.....
It brought new meaning to that passage for me personally. I needed that. Thanks for sharing!
Scarlett, you just scored major points. I had no idea you were a Christian. Love it! Me too. Thanks for being a mentor. You have no idea :)
I needed to read this post at this moment. Thanks, Scarlet!
Thanks for sharing your thoughts...I memorized John 15 about a year ago and it's so rich to meditate on the contents. Have you read "Secrets of the Vine" by Bruce Wilkinson? I really appreciate his take on the passage.
I think I need to go back and work through it again. =) Thanks for the reminder.
You've been in my prayers, Scarlett and it's exciting to see what the Lord is doing in and through you.
-Vanessa Myers
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