The Bachelorette.

In high school, there was a song I used to listen to OVER AND OVER AGAIN to remind myself that I would one day be thankful that all my silly teen heartbreaks didn't work out! It was an old song by Garth Brooks called "Unanswered Prayers" and it's about him returning to a high school football game all the years later with his wife and seeing an ex girlfriend from high school, but being thankful for his wife and thankful that God didn't answer his teenage prayers because He had someone better in mind.

I've been thinking of that song today as I get excited to watch the season premiere of the new Bachelorette tonight on ABC. My Twitter/Facebook followers might remember a few months ago before they picked Jillian as the Bachelorette that I got a phone call from ABC expressing interest in having me their next Bachelorette.

Like do WHAT??????? Me???? Ok, so yes, I confess, one night while watching The Bachelor, their redundant ad popped up "Could you be our next Bachelorette?" and on a complete whim I said, what the heck, I'll apply. But never in a million years did I think I would actually HEAR something from them.

A lot of you were excited and told me I should go for it, and a few of you expressed concern. I did respond back to the casting agent with a further application and more pictures they needed, but just decided to lift it all up to God and allow Him to keep opening that door or shut it if it wasn't His will.

Around this time that I heard from ABC was when Mark and I were beginning our emails back and forth. I was completely torn when I heard from ABC because, yes, on one hand, it could be a fun opportunity, but on the other hand, I was really enjoying getting to know Mark and was curious where God might lead us. Mark was one of the people that really expressed concern over me going on the show worried that it would do more harm than good, and I really admired that he was honest with me. This all happened right before WPPI this year and as Mark & I walked around together in Vegas, one day he finally asked me "So what are you going to do about The Bachelorette? Have you made a decision?" Deep down, I wanted him to tell me NOT to go on the show because he wanted to keep getting to know me, but I just replied "I don't know yet... I'm kind of waiting to see if a better opportunity comes along." Like in girl language, HINT HINT, IF YOU WANT ME, MAKE A MOVE! :-)

Thankfully, the last night we were in Vegas, he did make a move on top of the Eiffel Tower with our first kiss, and yesterday marked our 3 months together.

A week after Vegas, I heard they ended up going with Jillian from last season's of The Bachelor to be new Bachelorette, and honestly, I was relieved that God shut that door for me.

All I can say is, reality is so much better than reality TV and my past three months with Mark have been sooooo amazing! And it's been nice too getting to know Mark more and more without cameras around! ha!

But of course, I'm totally going to watch the new season and I can't wait for the season premiere tonight! Good luck Jillian!

Here's a preview of all the drama!