Numb.
Today, as a result of the biopsy, the doctor gave my dad 6 months to a year.
Through the tears that keep flowing, all I can do is play this song over and over. Despite what the doctor said about my dad's cancer, my family and I are choosing to still believe in a miracle and God's goodness. Thank you for believing with us.
"I Still Believe" by Jeremy Camp
Scattered words and empty thoughts
Seem to pour from my heart
I've never felt so torn before
Seems I don't know where to start
But its now that I feel your grace fall like rain
From every fingertip washing away my pain
I still believe in your faithfulness
I still believe in your truth
I still believe in your holy word
Even when I don't see, I still believe
Though the questions still fog up my mind
With promises I still seem to bear
Even when answers slowly unwind
It's my heart I see you prepare
But its now, that I feel, your grace fall like rain
From every fingertip washing away my pain
I still believe in your faithfulness
I still believe in your truth
I still believe in your holy word
Even when I don't see, I still believe
Well the only place I can go is into your arms
Where I throw to you my feeble prayers well in brokenness
I can see that this was your will for me
Help me to know that you are near
I still believe in your faithfulness
I still believe in your truth
I still believe in your holy word
Even when I don't see, I still believe
"For everything there is a season. A time for every purpose under Heaven." ~Ecclesiastes 3:1
Through the tears that keep flowing, all I can do is play this song over and over. Despite what the doctor said about my dad's cancer, my family and I are choosing to still believe in a miracle and God's goodness. Thank you for believing with us.
"I Still Believe" by Jeremy Camp
Scattered words and empty thoughts
Seem to pour from my heart
I've never felt so torn before
Seems I don't know where to start
But its now that I feel your grace fall like rain
From every fingertip washing away my pain
I still believe in your faithfulness
I still believe in your truth
I still believe in your holy word
Even when I don't see, I still believe
Though the questions still fog up my mind
With promises I still seem to bear
Even when answers slowly unwind
It's my heart I see you prepare
But its now, that I feel, your grace fall like rain
From every fingertip washing away my pain
I still believe in your faithfulness
I still believe in your truth
I still believe in your holy word
Even when I don't see, I still believe
Well the only place I can go is into your arms
Where I throw to you my feeble prayers well in brokenness
I can see that this was your will for me
Help me to know that you are near
I still believe in your faithfulness
I still believe in your truth
I still believe in your holy word
Even when I don't see, I still believe
Labels: Personal
posted by Scarlett Lillian // Jacksonville Senior Photographer at 9:30 PM
45 Comments:
Oh Scarlett,
I am so sorry to hear this news tonight. I was hoping and praying for something much better.
It's so hard to not be selfish and want daddy to stay here on Earth with us for a longer amount of time. But please remember the reward that awaits us in Heaven.
I have Faith and Trust that God will heal your dad, whether in this life or the eternal life... God will heal him.
What a scary and emotional time for you all. Will they be going thru Chemo in hopes that they can kill the bad cells?
Please don't lose Faith. Whatever you do, hold on to the Faith that you have. God is at work! In this time, when Satan can lure into your life through your weakness, remain strong.
Lifting you in up prayer,
Ginny
Scarlett, with you and your family I am choosing to believe that God is going to bring forth a miracle for your Dad.
I'm still praying for you!
Much love!
Scarlett.......I will continue to pray for you all and will stand with you in believing in a miracle for your dad. God is good and He knows what is best. Hold on to His hand for strength and comfort.
I've been reading your blog for a couples days now and I love both your photography and your faith. Keep your faith and God will guide your family. Remember that there are no obstacles the lord puts in our path that we cannot overcome. So many times doctors give patients a certain time frame and years later they are still alive. Put your faith in the lord and if he is ready to make your dad his angle, he will give you the strength to let him go with peace. Cherish every moment with your family. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. God bless you...
Scarlett, I am so sorry to hear this news. Your father, as well as your entire family, will be in my prayers. There is a lot of power in prayer--and there will be A LOT of people praying for your Daddy. I hope you can find some comfort in that. ~Shandon
Miracles happen. :) I'll continue to pray for your family. I can't even imagine what you and your mom are going through.
I am believing and praying alongside you and your family.... May He wrap His arms around you to give you comfort, hold your hand to give you strength, and walk beside you through every moment that lies ahead. You are all loved!
Hi, I just wanted to show you my complete empaty and support. I am suffering from the same, my dear mom was diagnosticated with breast cances or CM as she calls it back in september, just after I pass tru an hurricane, two of my most beloved friends envolved in really really bad car accidents and a terrible semester in college. It´s been really an incredible hard journey, she´s in phase 3, and recently her sister in law, my aunt, was diagnosticated with Breast Cancer too. I belive all this has a really strong purpose in my family´s life. My mom´s family converted almost 75 years ago when some christian missioners came to Chetumal, a really small town back then, and prayed and supported my great grandfather who was suffering from lepre, and he was healed, not by the misisioners but by God, so there´s no human disease, emotional or spiritual pain that The Lord can not heal my friend. We, all the daughters, sisters, moms, aunts or friedns with someone pssing tru cancer have hope. So my prayers with You, I know the Lord will make the best for all.
Wonderful song; Jesus can heal wholly and completely and my thoughts and prayers and tears (I cry when I hear that song!) will be with you guys. Jesus, be with the Williams family tonight Lord.
OMGoodness.....I can't get past the first sentence...it keeps repeating in my mind, as I am certain it has to you all day as well. I am so sorry to hear of this devastating news. You and your family keep praying, keep believing that miracles can and DO happen all the time. God's power and grace are truly amazing. No matter what happens, we are all praying for each of you and I hope that you can find comfort in knowing that. May God caress your broken hearts in his healing hands.
~Lori
Keep the faith Scarlett! God won't put more on us than we can handle. I'll keep you and your family in my prayers.
~Tiesha
We believe.
I believe in miracles from God and only from God. I believe God allows Dr's to provide medicine but only will He provide if it works or not.
Rely on God and only God in all you do, from what I've read just in a short amount of time, I believe you and others do just that!
I also believe He is using you to not only help those in your life see Him clearer but also to help us bloggers to become a "family" at this time and help you and others through their personal struggles.
A mom of one of our good friends was diagnosed w/cancer a few years ago, they gave her a few months to live. She ended up living atleast 2 years longer than predicted and at one point the cancer completely disappeared, w/o the Dr's being able to explain why. Now that is God working!
God Bless and keep on believing!
Scarlett,
I am sorry to hear the results about your dad. All I know is that you never know what God's plans are, a miracle is always possible. And I know that no matter what happens He will carry you through and will use this trial for a holy purpose. I'll be praying for ya'll.
Kelly HErrin
Miracles happen everyday. My prayers are with you and with your family.
oh wow sweetie, I know this is a very difficult time. I've gone through this various times in the last 4 years with my family members. Just take in everything you can and cherish it for as long as you can. I'm still praying for you and your family.
Thinking of y'all and praying for y'all. I love you!
Rachie
Scarlett,
your family is in my prayers. You amaze me that through this difficult time, your faith is so strong. I believe in miracles, I believe God has a reason, I believe in the power of prayer. Through Him all things are possible. Keep your smile and keep your hands lifted to God.
peace,
Cheyenne
I don't know you but I am praying for you and your father. I can't help but encourage you to go to Lakeland, FL!
I'm so sorry to hear the news Scarlett. Just remember that the Lord provides ultimate healing. Stay strong during these tough times and remember that it is ok at times to just feel-sad, confused, or even numb...and during those moments, you stay strong in your beliefs and reach out to those around you.
I've been blog-stalking for quite some time and finally felt compelled to say hello.
Three of my grandparents were given simular news in the last two years. My grandmother passed in the time she was given. My grandfather held out for an extra year... and my Machute (Lithuanian Grandmother) is going strong with no signs of giving up. The point is that we- as people- can't be given an expiration date. We can be given an approximate timeline for the progression of a disease. We can be given an estimated time before certain meds may be needed but our life and death are not something that can be tangibly measured by any other mortal being.
When I received the first "deadline" I was so very broken. The days were met with anxiety and worry and I began to feel the pains of grief and loss from the moment that the expiration date was spoken. It wasn't fair. I had to spend the next year anticipating and waiting for it to happen. After that experience, I learned one important lesson that has made it soooo very much easier with these other situations...
I spent each day ensuring that it was being lived entirely without regret. I spent every day without the feelings of loss. I told myself that we are all dying and I could pass tomorow or the next day or a year from now or 50... and that dying is a part of life that we really don't talk about until it is right there in our faces. I am someone that tries to be eternally optimistic. And in this time of uncertainty, I urge you to spend the next few days opening the flood gates and letting you feel it all- don't hold back. And once you have felt the worst of it... get out there and truely live each day with your father- doing all the things that you may have put off and prolonged. You will find that the next 6 months are going to be so much more meaningful and substance-filled than they would have been a week ago. Perhaps a year will pass perhaps 20 more... whatever God's plan.... either way, you will have had the most amazing 6 months bonding with your father.
Thinking of you.
You're my Healer (by: Planet Shakers)
You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease
I trust in You
I trust in You
I believe You're my Healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe You're my Portion
I believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus You're all I need
My Healer, You're my Healer
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
You hold my world in Your hands
Scarlett -
I'm so very sorry. I'm praying for everyone in your family.
-Brooke Payne (Wansley)
I am so sorry to hear this. I am praying for your family. I know how hard this is for you. My best friend who is 25, is also battling cancer. This is her 2nd cancer. She was in remission for a while, but it came back in Jan. 07. She has been on chemo for so long and she said they have tried almost every drug out there in hope to cure it. I know how hard this is for you. Cancer is awful, and it is especially hard to deal with since your family has been through it before. Stay strong and positive!! Miracles do happen!! :)
I am so sorry to hear this. I am praying for your family. I know how hard this is for you. My best friend who is 25, is also battling cancer. This is her 2nd cancer. She was in remission for a while, but it came back in Jan. 07. She has been on chemo for so long and she said they have tried almost every drug out there in hope to cure it. I know how hard this is for you. Cancer is awful, and it is especially hard to deal with since your family has been through it before. Stay strong and positive!! Miracles do happen!! :)
Scarlett, you and your Mom and Dad are totally in our prayers right now... It's impossible for us to fathom God's plan, so the best we can do is rest assured that He has purpose for everything. I know you already know that... please let us know if there is *anything* we can do for you all...
abrazos,
~andrew + katrina~
I've never left a comment on a blog before but I felt like I really had to this time - your story is basically my story - my mother was diagnosed with lung cancer August 2007 and was given six months to live - she made it an extra three - she passed away two weeks ago. I know we don't know each other - but I just wanted to let you know that I am praying for you and your family and if you ever need to talk to someone who has been through this - please don't hesitate to contact me.
(((((HUGS)))) Remember to keep looking up Scarlett and know that God is healer-no matter what man says.
Scarlett I am so sorry to hear this news, but I have so much faith that your dad can make a full recovery. I know there are no words, so just know that you have my prayers!
Love you so much!
M:)
Scarlett,
I will keep all three of you in my prayers. I know how difficult this situation is. I lost my Mother to cancer when I was 12. It is a tough process, but you just have to have faith and know that with God anything is possible. Trust and the Lord will provide. Stay positive.
Heavenly Father, I ask that you shine your loving light onto dad, and fill scarlett and her family with your love and strength. Father I ask you to lay your healing hand on her dad, and help him recover from this disease. Help the doctors rid his body of his illness. Fill their hearts with the love and strength that we all pray and send out to them. In Lords name I pray, Amen.
~c
I've been reading about your journey here on your blog Scarlett, and although I don't always comment you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. I can only imagine what a tough time it is right now, but just keep the faith like you are and spend all the time you can with the ones you love. I don't really know what else to say exactly, but I hope this helps you feel a little more comforted in this hard time.
Hi Scarlett,
This is Susan, Chris's partner I just wanted to stop in and let you know I too am sending healing thoughts and prayer your way. I lost my father to lung cancer many years ago. Please keep your faith and know that miracles do happen. My father was given three months at his diagnosis and we were blessed to have him for 2 years. Believe in your love for him as it is the strength that will keep him strong. Do not let the doctors prognosis weigh heavy as it is your love and faith that will determine your time together. For now love each other as much as you can and cherish every moment as it is truly a gift from god. My heart goes out to you and your family.
Susan
Scarlett, We are so, so very sorry to hear about your dad. Please know that you and your family are in our prayers.
Jessi, Daniel and Teagan Stevens
Oh Honey I am so so sorry! Dr's are wrong sometimes, I hope he proves them to be. My mom is in the hospital right now also going through some medical problems. I'll be keeping your dad in my prayers with her.
If you care to hear my opinion, I wouldn't take any more jobs than you have to. Take as much time to be with your dad as you can. Take some time off work. You all deserve rest and reflection. Whether God heals him or not, it will be emotionally and spiritually exhausting. I will continue to pray for your dad and your family. We will not give up.
Scarlett -- Miracles happen! I will pray for your father and for your family! God is watching you guys and he has his hands on your hearts. xoxo. God Bless him. I'm truly sorry to have to read that news.
hi, i only discovered your blog a few weeks ago and i know i don't know you, but my eyes filled to tears with this news. i'm praying that the Lord will give you and your family so much strength during this time and that you will have the courage and wisdom to be content with His will. i have no idea why God does what He does, but I do know that His plan is perfect. I will be praying for a miracle...and I know first hand that miracles do happen.
I believe! Will continue to pray for his COMPLETE physical healing as well as the comfort that comes from Jesus himself for all of you now!
Scarlett:
I'm so sorry to hear about your news. I repeat everyone's sentiments and I know that miracles can happen and DO happen. Enjoy every single moment and each moment memorable. You are in my prayers...
-Carolina
Scarlett, I will be praying for you and your family. Let me know if you need anything.
Scarlett,
I'm so sorry to hear the results, but I know that God is bigger than anything here and that He gives us miracles everyday.
I really wanted also to encourage you by telling you of the miracle God gave to our family. I'll email you later with the details and know that you're in our family's prayers.
Hi Scarlett,
I just want to say that I will pray for you and your family.
Scarlett - I am so sorry to hear this. You and your family are in my prayers.
Wow, 44 comments already! You all are so awesome to go out of your way to share your love and prayers!! Though I am belated in getting back to you, and I can't answer each one personally, I have read each and every comment along the way and all I can say is thank you thank you thank you!!
Also, to answer a few questions, yes my dad is currently receiving chemo. They said it can't cure it, but it can hopefully reduce the tumor and where the cancer cells have spread to in effort to prolong his life a little longer than the prognosis. But nothing is guaranteed and now we are just waiting to see if he responds to the treatment.
Thank you too to everyone sharing their own miracle stories! And for all the tears shed on my dad's behalf, that means more to me than you know!
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