This is where faith is tested.
First off, thank you to everyone who has been celebrating with me over my mom's recent results. God is good all the time and all the time God is good. Even in moments like now, when I am scared to death over my own new results.
In light of all my mom's recent tests, I scheduled an appointment with my gynocologist for my annual exam. Yesterday, she found what felt like a cyst, but ordered a sonogram just to double check. Then today the sonogram showed the lump, so the radiologist ordered a follow up mammogram, and the mammogram verified the lump. And next week, they want me to get a biopsy to see if the lump is positive or negative.
Great. Wait, do what?
I walked out of the hospital kind of numb to all that was swirling around me. They throw so much information at you at once, I kept having to ask for the English version of what they were saying to me. It wasn't until I got in the car that reality set in over the possibilities of it all and I just burst out in tears.
"Oh my gosh, what if I have cancer? I'm only 26, I'm not even married yet, what if I have to lose a breast like my mom did, how am I going to pay for all these upcoming medical bills, what if I have to have chemo and lose my hair, I barely wear a cup size A, how can I even have enough breast to have cancer in it?"
All these thoughts swirling around in my head as I just cried to Jesus for His comfort in the midst of my fears.
But despite the unknowns right now, I believe God has a purpose in all of this and I'm keeping faith that He is true to His word when He says He works for the good of those love Him. (Romans 8:28) He doesn't give us testimonies without a test, right?
So I wanted to share this with all of you to ask for your gracious prayers for me this time, and also to educate you on the importance of getting regular exams. Insist on mammograms or sonograms. I had been trying to get one ever since I found out about my mom, and no one would give me one claiming I was too young for it. Obviously not. I actually just heard of a 20-year-old friend of a friend that has breast cancer. Please lift her up as well.
Thank you for surrounding me in your prayers. I'll keep you updated when I know more next week.
In light of all my mom's recent tests, I scheduled an appointment with my gynocologist for my annual exam. Yesterday, she found what felt like a cyst, but ordered a sonogram just to double check. Then today the sonogram showed the lump, so the radiologist ordered a follow up mammogram, and the mammogram verified the lump. And next week, they want me to get a biopsy to see if the lump is positive or negative.
Great. Wait, do what?
I walked out of the hospital kind of numb to all that was swirling around me. They throw so much information at you at once, I kept having to ask for the English version of what they were saying to me. It wasn't until I got in the car that reality set in over the possibilities of it all and I just burst out in tears.
"Oh my gosh, what if I have cancer? I'm only 26, I'm not even married yet, what if I have to lose a breast like my mom did, how am I going to pay for all these upcoming medical bills, what if I have to have chemo and lose my hair, I barely wear a cup size A, how can I even have enough breast to have cancer in it?"
All these thoughts swirling around in my head as I just cried to Jesus for His comfort in the midst of my fears.
But despite the unknowns right now, I believe God has a purpose in all of this and I'm keeping faith that He is true to His word when He says He works for the good of those love Him. (Romans 8:28) He doesn't give us testimonies without a test, right?
So I wanted to share this with all of you to ask for your gracious prayers for me this time, and also to educate you on the importance of getting regular exams. Insist on mammograms or sonograms. I had been trying to get one ever since I found out about my mom, and no one would give me one claiming I was too young for it. Obviously not. I actually just heard of a 20-year-old friend of a friend that has breast cancer. Please lift her up as well.
Thank you for surrounding me in your prayers. I'll keep you updated when I know more next week.
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posted by Scarlett Lillian // Jacksonville Senior Photographer at 8:22 PM
44 Comments:
Hey Girl! I will definitely lift you up! If you need anything, just call-- you have my numbers. Love you~sherie
I will keep you in prayer my friend.
James 1:2-3
Scarlett, I will be praying for God to intercede in this situation in a BIG way. I pray God will shower you with peace and comfort during this time and that you will have renewed strength and faith daily. God Bless you!
Cheryl Lester
Consider prayers sent! All I know is that the truth is you are healed in Jesus' Name!!
You are ALWAYS in my prayers. Try to rest in God's promises in His word. Much love.
I'm praying for you and your family... Keep turning to Him and you will find peace...
Hi Scarlett, I haven't actually introduce myself yet..but I wanted to let you know after I read your blog..I ran into the living room and my husband and I prayed for you and will continue too every night. I hope everything works out for you and you do seem very strong in your faith, which honestly will get anyone through anything! Good luck,
Sierra K.
You're in my prayers Scarlett. <3 - Dannielle Rodriguez.
Scarlett, you are definitely in my prayers! Leena
Love ya, girl and I'm definitely praying for you. Listen to It Is Well and allow God to cover you with His peace. If you need to talk, I'm here!
Scarlett, you have been and will continue to be in my prayers. Just remember that you are God's daughter- his precious princess- and no matter what the results are, He is and will ALWAYS be sovereign. He loves you, and you just have to hold on tight to Him.
You will be in my prayers. Keep a positive attitude, BELIEVE that you will be fine, and you will be.
Oh Scarlett, you will definitely be in my prayers! You are such a strong woman, I have no doubt in my mind that whatever the results, you will make it through in the end okay! :)
you are definitely in my prayers! i'm one of your myspace buddies, and god has you under his care!
Scarlett I will kee you in my prayers I love how much faith you have! GOD IS GOOD!!
Scarlett,
I will be thinking about you, please let me know if I can do anything for you.
Just stay strong and brave!!! The hardest part is waiting for tests and results. I'll pray hard for you scar, just keep strong!! I know we've only keep in touch via emails and one dinner (which we must do again!!) but know I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers!!! Please let me know if I can do anything for ya. Maybe I'll have leroy wear his elvis hair for ya when he comes out again ;)
xoxoxo
Oh.. Scarlett.. My thoughts and prayers are with you.. What I can tell you is that while I know its terrifying, and you are scared waiting for your results.. but I know that if you can stay positive and focus on positive energy that will help so much.. that you will get through this... and come out just fine and stronger for it all.
Scarlett, I'll be praying for you as well. You and I are the same age, so I know exactly how you must be feeling. Please keep us posted and know that God will take care of you.
i am sending you healthy vibes my sweet. Love--heather
Oh Scarlett, I love you! They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength. And you will rise above this, just as the eagles do, and you will have a testimony to show how great He truly is.
Dear Scarlett,
I am keeping you in my prayers! I can only imagine how you are feeling right now. Stay positive!
I had a scare with a cyst in my ovary and in the back of my mind I wondered could this be cancer?? I had surgery in Aug to remove my ovary and tube b/c of this cyst and THANK the lord it was NOT a cancerous cyst!
I hope you have the same outcome, life is so precious..Again, you and your mother and friend will be in my prayers.
Please keep us updated!
Sincerly,
Dana "Happich" Rukab
you and your family are in our prayers right now, I can only imagine how difficult this must be, but know that God is good, and there is a greater purpose for you.
Girl! I'm praying for you! You are definitely an inspriation to me...let me know if there is anything I can do for you... Jacksonville isn't that big of a city!!! :O) Keep rockin' the pink!
Definitely praying for you Scarlett!
scarlett you know I am always here for you. I will get you as much information on naturally curing your cancer if it comes to that. I will help you for sure! I love you dearly.
Scarlett,
Keep staying positive!!! God is all powerful, He is all knowing, and He has a perfect will for your life. We know that God is our one true healer. Do not allow negative thoughts to process... (which is so hard in turbulent times)yet, think on the goodness of God and all that He has done for you. He will never leave you, nor forsake you. You are in my prayers and thoughts.
@-->-- Susan J.
Thinking of you... Hang in there, Scarlett.
Look, Scarlett, at how many people there are who love you and are willing in a second to pray for you - maybe even some who don't often pray. We are praying for you as well, and want you to know that we are constantly blessed by your life - even though we don't know each other well. we will be waiting to hear what happens.
Hebrews 6:13-20
Hugs to you! I'll be keeping you in my good thoughts and prayers. Check out Psalm 23 too..it always helps me calm down after reading that chapter when I'm scared and worried....
Scarlett,
More prayers here. In fact, if you don't mind, I would like to send it to my aunt (survior) and my cousin, her daughter.
Words can even begin to express how thankful I am for all of you! Your sweet words of encouragement have truly brought tears to my eyes and I cherish each and every prayer you have sent you my way. If there is one thing I've learned from my mom's experience, it is the importance of the "dream team" you surround yourself with, and even though I don't know a lot of your personally, I carry your words in my heart and they have sincerely helped give me strength during this weekend of waiting. Thank you with all of my heart! You all are the best!
Much love,
Scarlett
Scarlett-
I don't know what to say... and yet I continue to type this... I believe I just want you to know that I am here and you are in my thoughts... It has been a really long road for me trying to put this Pink Envelope Project together... and I will be honest- I was doubting myself tonight... but reading this has given me more motivation to make this happen in a BIG way than I ever could have on my own... you will be that driving force for me in the coming months- as your ever-present optimism is infectuous... You are in my prayers...
-Danielle Gregory
Praying for you.
God Bless,
Crystal
Oh course you will be in our prayers. A word of incouragement: I have had a scare with this same issue a few years back. Things worked out well for me. It is already a positive that IF something is wrong, you and the doctors know about it.
Oh Scarlett, my heart dropped when I read the blog! I know how scary it can be, I've had my own issues with scares and so far have been incredibly lucky. You will definitely be in my prayers!
Katie
You will be in our prayers.
Scarlett. I have been out of town tis weekend. Just getting home, and reading blogs. I'm so sorry to read this. I was hoping the appt went well, and you got some good news.
Please know that you are in the thoughts and prayers and if you need someone to talk to, I'm here.
Big Hugs
Crystal
You are in my prayers, Scarlett. Your family, friends and "fans" are here for you... Remember, God will never give you more than you can bear.
Scarlett, I know that you feel God has rocked your world, but I know you will make it though anything because you walk with Him. Take the time to just breathe and allow Him to shower you in His peace. Find comfort in knowing that you are loved by so many. I thank God for you and the walking testimony that you are. Stay strong in your Faith. And if you should ever need anything, let us that are your fans and friends know. God wants to use us to comfort you. My prayers are always with you.
Shara Lana
It's been a rough year for all, we will keep you in our prayers, and please keep us posted!
heena and prashant
You are certainly in my prayers. I pray that the God of PEACE will grant you a calm that you could not experience without Him by your side. Know that he is the author and perfector of our faith, and He is holding you ever so tightly in His strong, powerful, mighty, yet tender grip.
Love to you, friend,
Jill
Hi Scarlett,
I've been "blog-stalking" you for awhile now and knew I needed to break my silence when I read this post. I'm lifting up many, many prayer on your behalf to the God we both know!
best,
Sharon
Thank you so much for taking the time to continue to share your love! It means the world to me sincerely!
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