I found that something more.

Tonight, I had one of those surreal moments when everything you have been working so hard for all fast forwards from beginning to the present moment in less than a second.

I went to my favorite grocery store, Publix. (Seriously, like a mecca of grocery stores) I've been going to this one particular Publix since the day I moved into my condo a few years ago. To this day I remember my first few trips to the grocery store and how they were so theraputic for me. I had just moved out of my parents house, and something about buying my own groceries felt so "big girl" to me. However, I was in that phase in life so confused on what direction to take in my career. Not only had I just moved out of my parents, I had just broken up with the guy I thought I was going to marry, and I had just quit my nice corporate job that I had got comfortable with the secure biweekly paychecks. It was a big risk and everyone thought I was crazy to give up such a great job. But like my theme song of the moment said by Sugarland:

There's gotta be something more
Gotta be more than this
I need a little less hard times
I need a little more bliss
I'm gonna take my chances
Taking a chance I might
About what I'm looking for
There's gotta be something more

And I was determined to find it while I was still young and able to. I was definitely having a mid 20s life crisis.

Who was Scarlett Lillian? What was her calling in life? What was she meant to pursue career wise? What were her passions? Who was she really supposed to marry if not the past two guys she had thought were the ones?

I'm still waiting for God to reveal the answer to the last one, but it's so amazing to be in a place of peace now all this time later knowing the other answers.

Scarlett Lillian is a photographer.

Whew. No more wondering, no more searching to find myself, no more career A.D.D. jumping around to different jobs trying to figure out what is best for me. I know now in the depths of my heart that photography is my calling and I truly love every minute of it.

So back to yesterday. I was in my Publix at the checkout line and who do I see on the cover of the new People magazine but Jenny McCarthy.

"Ha, there's Jenny, still got the same hairdo from when I photographed her a few months ago," I thought to myself so casually.

Then I kind of stopped and looked around for a second thinking "Wow, I remember the days when I used to walk around this grocery store so clueless about who I was and what I wanted out of life and now here I am in the same grocery just a few years later having already photographed the person that is currently on the cover of frickin' PEOPLE MAGAZINE!"

It was just one of those moments when you can look back at your life and realize how far you have come. In your career. As a person. As the woman God has created you to be. And it's awesome to be in that phase in life where I can look back and also see the many seeds of faith I planted now growing into a harvest of God's blessings.

As I flipped through the magazine while my check out girl was ringing me up, she asked, "Are you going to get that magazine, too?"

"Nah," I said and put it back on the shelf. Then thinking to myself, "I don't need the mag, I already have a ton of photos I took of Jenny myself."

Click here to view the entry from my old blog to see some of the photos I shot of her. It's so refreshing to see a celebrity use her spotlight for something positive in this crazy day and age of rehab, jail and partying. Go Jenny! I know many mothers applaud you for your efforts!